I am supposed to do stuff this weekend like go to the mall with Brittani, and go to a mothers day dinner at a country club, gag. Anyway, It's first mod, and I think I am going to have an OK day. I woke up late, and spent my god old time getting ready, then asked my grandma to take me to school. I went outside, and had my very last smoke, and went back in to find Frank being an asshole to Diane again. I love her to death, but she brings it on herself. She doesn't break up with him ,and stop talking to him, so i'm done trying to help. if she doesnt want to help herself, why should I want to help her. I didnt get to see Brittani to give her pajama pants, but oh well.
I hate fighting with my mom, it blows. Yesturday I tried to write in a journal about whats happening to calm myself down, and she was being a total bitch came in and told me to stop doing that, and go clean. After I got sooo mad at her, and was being a bitch to everyone, she was in the best mood ever! EErr i fucking loathe that. Don't I use the word "loathe" alot. Yeah well I saw it in 16 candles (one of the best movies ever) and it juts kinda stuck. I've been saying it too long.
I need to go somewhere after school. I cant sleep over Brittani's like I planned to, so yeah I need to do something. I am always home, or at Brittani's lately, and I kinda need a change. I am a bad person, I always seem to hurt one of my best friends with out them even knowing.
EDIT; 2:04, Mod 8
Oh my fucking god... I am in one of my best moods ever. I have no idea why, I mean I didn't even call anythign stupid in french class. I actually sat up and watched "a tale of two cities". I was pleasent all through lunch, I made up with Ryan, I participated in all of my classes. I was nice to everyone, and I think I only sed a total of 2 mean things today all of which were directed towards Mr. Fanucci. Ahh, now I'm in the SLC with Ashley, and I want her to make a journal so I can comment in it lol. She won't, but I think her and Kris Davies would make a good couple. Wow, I need a cigarette right about now.